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| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 | | 12:32 am |
Omg the tiredness
Oh got im so tired... just got back from working with a freackin idiot. everything that he did he needed to ask how to do first, wish he would just find out for himself. anyhow was in a really bad mood today lol. Made 55$ though... one of the slightly better than usual tips.... |
| Saturday, February 4th, 2006 | | 1:16 am |
Huh, havent posted in a while
Lol havent really posted in a while... i dont really think people read this thing anyhow... but whatever. Whats up everyone? For whatever reason i feel better now though, like not depressed. pretty cool =) |
| Monday, December 5th, 2005 | | 7:06 pm |
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| Sunday, December 4th, 2005 | | 10:56 pm |
My Weekend
Well then... check it out! Im posting something Anyhow I went to the movies with a friend of mine named Blake, saw the Ice Harvest (BTW is a great movie and i recomment seeing) We got there incredably early and thought we would review our little issue (apparently there was... i guess out of lack of better wording, a "love triangle" that i was part of and un aware of) anyhow he decided that we both have problems going out with people, even if they are interested, because we were afraid.... but not afraid of being rejected, but perhaps rather being afraid of the fact that, after getting to know us, we wernt interesting or new or independent, treading a new path. everyone wants that... but lets face it... in the end i dont really think anyone is really treading any new paths. (i imagin life in the modern age a barren grassless wasteland, the positiveness!) but anyhow he decided that if i was to break this cycle, that maybe i should ask her out(I wont) Later that day! After that Kris decideds he needs to bum money off of me... when he got here I gave him some money and then I decided I kinda wanted to get out of the house anyhow... We went to Boomers as well as watched one of Adams friends get yelled at by her mom (can i have my sweater back?) after which we went to bother Magen and slept at her house... out of lazyness mostly. It was interesting.... |
| Monday, October 10th, 2005 | | 10:48 pm |
The games are gone
So today I played my last session of gaming. I uninstalled them after that. Wee I did my homework for once. I think it did me good. Im still worried about tomorrow though... I always fear for the future. That I forgot something I should have remembered. It sucks... I hate that. God damnit |
| Sunday, October 9th, 2005 | | 11:53 pm |
Motivation is Key!
Recently I sort of got into a little car crash like thing... it wasnt really my fault. But for some strange reason it has gotten me thinking about what i have been doing with my life. I started thinking about the mentality I had while i was living my life. And I decited it was wrong. I decited that it was wrong going through my life and events that happen to me with an apathetic attitude, It was wrong that nomatter what happened to me eather bad or good that I would just say, "oh, ok, i guess thats cool/sucks". This is when I decited that I would try to turn my life around. I want to start caring about my life and what happens. I want to care about the people around me, my future, my grades. I decited it was because of motivation. I didnt want anything because I was never motivated into wanting anything else. I have been satisfied by having nothing of real value to me. But that is about to change. I want it to change. With this I decited i would set to motion a plan that would ultimantly change myself in a way that I feel better about my life. I want a life I care about. Life should mean something to me. and so now... I truly start this journal, weekly or daily. To chronical the day and or weeks of my life. (this step largely due to, recent events, my good friend kris... and strangely enough http://www.motivation123.com/onlinekit.html) |
| Thursday, October 6th, 2005 | | 1:10 am |
Nice guys!
Ode to the Nice Guys This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style. This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you. This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that. The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single. So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming. http://www.stwing.upenn.edu/~jenf/writing/rant04.html |
| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005 | | 12:24 pm |
Why Can't I Own a Canadian?
Dr. Laura Schlessinger is a radio personality who dispenses advice to people who call in to her radio show. Recently, she said that, as an observant Orthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22 and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The following is an open letter to Dr. Laura penned by a east coast resident, which was posted on the Internet. It's funny, as well as informative: Dear Dr. Laura: Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. End of debate. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the other specific laws and how to follow them: When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord - Lev.1:9. The problem is my neighbors. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them? I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her? I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness - Lev.15:19- 24. The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense. Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians? http://www.humanistsofutah.org/2002/WhyCantIOwnACanadian_10-02.html |
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| Thursday, September 29th, 2005 | | 9:23 pm |
Emptiness and alone
I dont know why... but i felt the need to look at some of the forums that i use to belong to in my years of roleplay i use to embrace and lose myself in (because my real life was pethetic...) and low and behold alot of them have come to an end. i dont really know why... but when i saw this i felt really empty and for some reason at the verge of tears... why? Who knows... who knows the inner workings of a human mind. perhaps i felt like in a sence some of my closest friends have died with these forums... or perhaps i just feel like a line has been cut... one of many that hold me close the this world, and i have fallen that much farther into myself. Then I thought about myself... and how I have been doing in school now... and i worry... i worry so much. I use to say i dont care about school, my future, my life. But now i realise i do. I care about it so much. and its paralizing thinking about how i have ruined my future with my freshmen year... and how this year. In my freshmen year... I had a feeling of aloneness... and saddness. I played it off as if i just didnt care about school... but in reality i was feeling sorry for myself. Today... this year. I feel the exact same way... I feel alone... empty... and now i am scared for my future. I dont even know what i want to do! And im falling apart. I dont know why i cant just do my work in my classes. I feel envy for my fellow classmates that seem to do so much better than me in such an easy pace. Now i think i realise that i am destined to be Average. God i hate being average, god... i hate myself. |
| Tuesday, September 20th, 2005 | | 6:38 pm |
The Mall....
Ahh the mall... a wonderful place to. do absolutely nothing! me and
some pals went there the other day. was interesting. I was suppose to
take someone home from work there but they blew me of cause they had a
friend there that could take her... while we were waiting for her
though we took pictures. yes indeed these male gender is rather
irrational and idiotic at times... but ever so entertaining!
My friend giving this poster the time of his life!
Pimping it at Macies.
Dont ask....
Feeling Pretty?
Diamond studded balls!
Trippin!
We have issues
To see the rest! |
| Sunday, September 18th, 2005 | | 1:16 pm |
Ahh the Germs... they consumes me!
oh god... the germs... they ovewhelm me. I feel horrible.... with the caughing up of green goo and what not. I would have a picture, but im sure that the only person that reads this thing will be much disgusted and then smack me for it. I wish I would just die... or someone purge me of this curse that has fallen upon my lungs and throat, that would be great. Damnit... gota do homework and study for a test tomorrow too. school, i need you to know that you are the bane to my existance and great opposer to my quest to seek the ability to do... Nothing! without guilt... I curse you! |
| Saturday, September 17th, 2005 | | 2:50 pm |
Hitch hikers of another world
Hitchhiker- to be carried or transported by chance or unintentionally as said by Merriam-Webster Online
One of these so called "Hitchhikers" was discovered on my car. Its
intent still unknown, I only know that it is potentially dangerous for
it continues to this moment to hold up what seems to be a base ball. I
now hold this creature of bluish tint captive untill its leader reveals
his or her self to me. If any others also encounter such creatures, do
contact me so that we may assest the degree of inflitration they have
on our idol world. here now is a photo of the creature...
 Current Mood:  apathetic |
| Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 | | 7:30 pm |
And so it begins
And so it begins! the very first, the start, the alpha, the birth! of
the first journal entry of this strange and confused child. There
really isn't much to say right now because there isn't much that is
happening. The sweet smell of my stuffy room and the sweet serenade of
Reno 911 lightly caressing my sences as i think of what to type and i
draw a blank! First post done! Current Mood:  amused |
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